Thursday, November 25, 2010

Pain



This is inner pain... what is pain? Its a deep dark feeling noone can describe. Its causes grief. It causes discomfort. Its like life is so empty, you feel alone. Noone is there for you but its not the proper feeling because everyone is there for you. you seem to close who your real friends are and shut your self out of every social loop. You feel alone but you're honestly not alone. Then what is your complex? whats your issue? you have no answer or no idea, Wtf is going on... People ask and you just shut them out. Pain is a horrible feeling noone should endure. Pain is my worst enemy and i cannot get passed it. How long have i been under this rock? I've lost track of time. I cannot find myself to vent to anyone with people bitching. I cannot talk about anything or anyone because my opinion is of a realist. I think different than people. For instance, people who have true feelings will act out on things before they do it. I can't find myself to enjoy anything in life. I have everything possible. Nice cloths... car... places-es to go, roof over my head. Food.. plenty to eat... video games, Music, movies you name it i pretty much have it. Yet i feel so empty. I havent been myself in months.... whats wrong with me? Am i losing the will to live?? I think that conclusion will come soon when I'm found dead. I pray to god that doesn't happen but i hope for the best to get threw this...