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Blogging is really fucking hard now for the simple fact that i keep drama off here recently. What can i blog about? Well lol i did encounter some crazy Playstation home love here recently. I'll havta do some thinking about it to put it into a perfect perspective. Its rather interesting. I may even start doing a explore home type thing. I don't know... home has really changed a lot. Plus Playstation has new privacy rules so now u can't get "run by adds" from random people

Stay tuned...

and happy new Year!

#Shemad (Im being me again!)

So you know i can't get online without messing with someone. Untill someone gets serious and blows things out of proportion. But this girl was way out of it. Lol, She went from hating me to liking me... to hating me again to liking me to telling me to come to her hood that i would get beat up. I turned the recorder off because she was giving out her Email address and phone number trying to actually get serious so there wont be a part 3. #fact is... She contradicted her self many times. Im not going to write in sync with the video but you can just watch and see for yourself. Pretty hilarious.

Basically she was trying to play the victom of being trolled before any of us steped in. I didn't say a word to her untill dominatrix started trolling her. She was being very rude because some guy was talking next to her. Scrolling the lyrics to the song. She claimed she knew the guidelines to playstation home and that she would get him suspended just for doing that. To me thats a lil chidlish... bitchmad and pussy all in 1 pot.  All she had to do was hit mute on him like she did everyone else. but because her comments wasnt needed he kept doing it JUST TO ANNOY her which made it even more amusing. Soons as the guy left everyone in the Area jumped on her head with the #Shemad comments. Funny moment and good times for home.

Awwww weellll good or bad blogg ? I thought it was ok. Decent for me... stay tuned i may have more.

So it has Crossed my attention. Have you ever had a friend that..

I'm breaking the 4th! but not my own definition. Relate with me here for a second.

Lol

Scenario- It has to be 2 girls and a guy or 2 guys and a girl. The opposite sex are the 1s who are the new friends. The Same sex... 1 of them is Jealous.

So! have you ever had a friend who was so boring...You never had anything in common with? For example you actually know this person likes you. Wants to get with you. Gave him or her a chance before and they just didn't seem right? You stop talking to them for a long long time... then... 1 day they talk to you again and then you meet up with them and some other friends. his or her other friends ends up being really cool and interesting and you start to kick it with them more and then your "Friend" in the 1st place who was boring...Tends to actually want to start seem interesting again because he or she can't understand why you're kicking it with their friends now and not them? lol Then to top it all off they start sending you messages from social networks and text messages to your phone. Completely asking you and your new friend what you guys did all the time? Theres only a few situations or outcomes to this...

When the situation is you're JUST FRIENDS with the new friend and your own friend LIKES YOU it may happen like this.

1. Old friend starts to spaz for no reason on the both of you and or to include him or her into you and your new friends activities or you both can go to hell

2. give you The most STUPID ultimatum in the world which you know you and your new friend aren't going to go for unless 1 of you are not strong. For example, You believe you will lose a lot of perks or access too things if you don't give in to your old friend. I don't think anyone should care about the jealous friend acting this way in my opinion. That ultimatum is to no longer talk to your new friend anymore.

3. He or She goes about ignoring you both and two facing you guys behind your back making up sexual rumors and other kinds of nonsense.

4. Someone gets into a heated fight. Theres more to think of but i really don't have much to jot about on the brain. I do know in the end its always bad... Don't be the jealous friend. Two friends are kickin back as friends Mind your business. They don't really owe you much just because you linked them to meet each other. Be yourself... thats always interesting.

Red Hair Blue eyes...

Thats My beautiful mom. Astrius Jinx. By myside, behind me, infront of me all around me. Be afraid of Red hair and blue eyes. They are Exotic. They kill, deadly. FUCK YOU UP!.

I have niece's. Gboo, Blacc and Rayne. Second life nieces that i love to death. :D


In other news. Its Christmas time. Seems to be my favorite time of the year where I actually feel like i can be doing something with all this joy. Yes Joy i said joy, thats not my MO but... I came out of my deep dark hole. I just want be me and do what i enjoy. Thats keeping it fiction. Never intended for the things in the past to happen which in result to me making stupid and silly emo blogs. OUT OF CHARACTER! I will not deal with those i've dealt with in the past etheir. Everyone is gone. Its just me. ME ME ME. The blogged on the left side aren't here anymore and im going to remove them soon (By the time someone reads this they should be removed)

I Was on playstation home for the 1st time in about a couple of months. I honestly do not know how long i been off but i first noticed.... FREE MOVIES! Xbox now has youtube... will be getting Crackle but Sony has it now. Crackle is Good. I like it... However its very laggy on playstation. You can watch it with your friends free inside your private space too. EXAMPLE:

^ how about them apples! NICE Right... gives me a reason to actually sign in. But that doesn't mean i didnt get in any Online bullshit tho. Lol I'll leave it for the next blog. The Title will be #Shemad. Will be after i post the Video. Don't think i will be doing any editing but i do have an intro...

I Like it. Hope you all do... Can't wait to go viral again so EVERYONE CAN HATE ME...and really have nothing relevant to hate about sept... whats behind the "4th wall"

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO That has been a long hiatus!

I'm blogging! Its September. I got rid of all haters. If theirs more haters... or the same ones. Please, continue to hate. Lol PlayStation home still by god sucks. You still have no life, You still sign on to psn just to type "hey baby" to pixel titties.

So i was browsing youtube and i saw 1 of my videos was stolen to bash the content of it. Me personally i felt the same way thats why i wasnt bothered. The person stole it and bashed home for people getting married. Originally we where supposed to crash that wedding but i was stuck into my "no drama" attitude at the time.


Lol but some dude grabed my video and let them all have it. I knew not a person in that video... i just recorded and threw music over it. Just for views for the song... He pretty much let everyone have it saying home fams are stupid (ditto!) and everythign on home is stupid. At the end of the day people its not real... so i agree with it being stupid if you're taking it way to far...


Role playing is a way to explain what ur doing on home. But most don't say they are role playing because they are actually being themselves.... thats what makes home sucks...

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So i received an email from the tranny i blogged below. She thanked me for telling it like it is. Me being humble as my new found leaf i told her its all good. Yea... i appreciate mf's who can be proud of who they are no matter what and i was honestly enlighten by that email. Seems I made me feel good. So a second Shout out to nikki for being a Gangsta ass Gamer...


Hey i mite actually come back to blogging cause i dont really give a shit what people think of me anymore... fuc em... its S o S e <---- Respect it!

PSN

WELP! i spoke on my bday and SONY! has decided to bring back the PSNetwork today... Its an update as we speak. Some cities are ABLE to get online. A lot of Others cannot.. bare with sony (sike) lol

Have a great day

am i a failure?

Today is the birth of sose...

everything i had going for me is no longer existing...

is it my fault because i walked away??

Everytime i fucking come here i have nothing to fucking blogg... its starting to really fucking bother me. I'm really up here censoring myself... avoiding people. avoiding drama... Gagging shouting out someones name cause im pissed off at them. I don't want to embarrass anyone... Ugh!

I escaped my virtual world because people got close in shit. I don't know what to do or say anymore.

You know what i blame sony. Fuck that stupid fuckin company... the creation of playstation home.... etc. You know what, on facebook... i saw a group of playstation lovers and...i came across 1 special fuckin gamer. I couldn't believe this shit because all these time's i've been called a tranny on PSHome even after i got on the mic cursin someone out. There was living proof of a tranny on Facebook who is RAGING About not being on home...

^ yea... that is not a fucking girl! Not to discriminate but you guys need to stop harrassing girls or trannys over PSN! When it comes to gaming we are all 1... I believe in gaming. This bitch stands up and will tell u straight up that ur a heterosexual like its a bad thing or some shit. I respect that cause the bitch is a straight gamer! play your games and shut the fuck up thats all i say... and speaking of fucking sony... i just learned that ALLLL sony servers are takin down... from everquest... to free Realms... to... DC universe online both PC and PS3, YOU CANT PLAY SHIT ONLINE That SAYS SONY!!!

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKk

I need to play SOMETHING ON THE PS3! that is NOT Ps2!! its stupid that PS2 games WORK!!!!!!!!!!! why!? because its hosted by gamespy...

on to the NEXT!

[13:46] Trazique Clarity: yo bro

[13:46] Trazique Clarity: Idk what goin on but I'm ask nicely to fall back off SoSe

[13:47] Trazique Clarity: She not feeling whatever you doing so let it go

[13:48] Trazique Clarity: I know you see this

[13:49] Trazique Clarity: so dont be a lil bitch and not even acknowledge me

[13:49] J35T34 Ravinelli: wtf u mean pussy

[13:49] J35T34 Ravinelli: i got yo bitch

[13:49] J35T34 Ravinelli: and fuk sose too

[13:49] J35T34 Ravinelli: i kno u see dat

[13:50] Trazique Clarity: that fine you can be mad but dude she not feeling you or wahtevert youpestiring her about

[13:50] J35T34 Ravinelli: nigga i aint sayin shit to her

[13:50] J35T34 Ravinelli: tell her jump off my dick already

^

I deleted you about a month a two ago. Theirs no way im "on your dick" I mean i could of aired you out so long ago but i chose not to for reason that i considered you as a friend. But since its fuck me and Jump off your dick... Then its all good. I really don't need you as a friend as you are disloyal anyways.... I'll take the time out to shoot on you u rag doll chea rug gap-tooth with a g0ld cap on ya front tooth azz mexican. nigga its 2011 not 1991... take that miami vice shit out ya mouth and shut the fuc up....

I could make this blog really messy but i chose not to... AS PLAYSTATION NETWORK is still down. I am sad to say fuck sony...I can't play my DC universe, I can't get on PShome... I can't play Mortal Kombat online... PSN thank you for the most boring 3 weeks of my life. Thank you sony for getting hacked. No thank you second life...

Sucks! this my place to rant and i dont even RANT! fuck that!!!

PSN Outage week two

May 3rd : Playstation Network

As some of you may know... or may not know... PSN will be back online May 3rd 2011 after anonymous took it offline on april 21st. They stated they didnt harm Peoples credit card information. Sony just said that looking for it to be a FBI case... lol it fucking backfired. As of April 27th 2011 a class action lawsuit was opened againts sony by its consumers who claim their personal lives have been violated. Lol if i was sony i wouldnt of said shit. Thats just my personal opinion! I'm just saying Specially sense anonymouse admited to taking down the servers... then saying they arent harming any sony consumers

I have nothing to do with this... i'm not apart of "anonymous" i just think its funny. april 22nd was 2 days after it was hacked. Lets look at the time line... april 24th is the day some dumbazz at sony came up with the idea...to tell its consumers to check their credit their information has been stolen. Trying to say anonymous is doing it. Prior to that...anonymous on april 22nd said they didnt. They covered their own ass... lets just say someone did take ur information from sony. Why did they take 4 to 6 days... to explain ur shit is in trouble? i mean thats not professional at all. Not good business. 2 days later... they have a class action lawsuit open againts them... GOOD! sony mite fall... all i know is i want some of that money. My credit information is on PSN...

I know you Read it

I know you do, thats why i made this post just cause i know you gonna read it... Sooooo This is the End of the SoSe Project as for what it stood for n the Past. I grew up, we grew up... we not on that lame shit anymore. Got better shit to do.

My Second life:

Married

3 kids

Rich mom... Rich father...

7 Siblings 4 sisters not encluding myself, 3 brothers...

Lots of land... mansion home, my own home. Patriots football team...what more can i ask for ya know? dude i dont need you or your dick. I like myself for who i am. You can't get with that then i dont know what to tell you. I'm evil... and playfull but i dont have a heart. I know when and when not to... never tell me some fantasy shit like im feeling myself too much cuz im not. I'm emo remember. I'm always broken hearted. Don't tell me im on ur shit cuz im really not. I listen to my own music, i play my own games. i do my own thing. I dont need many people n my life. I entertain myself and people tend to enjoy my company so no... i dont feel myself. You're just mad because you can't get on the same program as me. HA HA HA!

anyway.. see ya when i get something NEW to blogg about. It mite just be second life.

lol shit...

Shit i want to blogg about i can't, i be told not too n shit... im having some issues on SL that helps me to stay away. I have 2 sisters...1 is married and has 2 kids She is the middle sister. She sort of whines about her cheerleading position with my Dad. Since rasdaon(my dad) owns the SFL patriots and she on the cheer sqaud she thinks she posed to get some special treatment i don't know. My oldest sister is conservative and quiet like me. So we get along. I'm pretty much tha baby of my moms children... since the twinz never sign online who play 5 years old. I'm just tha baby. Then theres my brother ace who like to cheat on women but he always get caught... dominic who never signs on... and my other brother i hate... that my mom loves. The 1 i deal with everyday. g0dly (fuck this nigga) my mom loves him the mostest. I don't know why... virtual mother is mean for that 1. he never signs on and bearily talks to anyone. Not gonna say what ice does... but people sure do come here cuz they think he still here... lol (again feeding the commenters) My mom is mrs astrius jinx who i should invite to this blog so she can let out some shit. We run the lions den on second life to get some of rated u's music heard. I play saints 2 a lot when im ignoring everyone. Im also hiding. Don't want to play sose anymore. I dont know why i feel that way i just dont.

blogging seems like a hassle... commenters are having fun...im not. well maybe i should start venting off about my sl... this kinda feels better tho knowing i hate my sl and now its soothing... it more drama there than anything ive ever seen in life. SL is full of it. all you havta do is become friends with someone and then you realize the reason people sign in. They have no life...(hmmph comment) or they just dont get out much and cant controll their own actions. Hey im getting deep again but its just a thought. Yes i like long walks on the psn beach just to clown the losers on there... put my ray gun in they face... (comment!)

comment groupie love

I'm so sorry i don't love you...

Well yea i "Wrote a eHarmony" blogg according to the asian kid named jasmin angel. Ya i got the info on you. The fact that you come here anonoymous to talk about dicks is hilarious. Whatever.

Anywayzzzz

So i was told to blog cause i have a friend who is some what good to me. Leaves me a lot on psn... but its all good. Running the lions den on sL is hardwork. Getting these dJ schedules going. Trying to get people our music is hard was well. You gotta feel it... like i do. I love my CJ and i love his music. We got so turned up on youtube almost to 1k... Im feelin that. To my lover who secretly loves me and wants me to have a big dick that he can suck... I will try to grow 1 for you baby. then im going to stick my dick deep down ur throat so u can enjoy the succulent flavors of sose... those juices flowing down ur throat as ur being gaged like a ho... keep commenting. I just love it...

SIKE

Really i have nothing to blog LOL im just jotting down bullshit... currently just staring at the psn Xmb lookin at the friendslist thinking absolutely nothing to myself.... getting bored as im writing.. wanting to kill shit. and i dont really play DC universe online anymore... i just watch. Ice does :) complicated game yo....

anny or u ok? or u OK anny? im going insane... wtf

You love me

Thats why you come here to hate on me.

You love me, thats why you sit and talk to yourself in the comment box

you love me... you really do and i appreciate you. To my dearest 1 hater

I love you too. I bet you sit in front of your browser waiting to hit www.TheSoSeProject.Com

Reason i know this is because we don't eve promote it.

This place is ground zero. Its a dead zone... it says up to practice on.

But you love me, thats why you still come here.

hoping 1 day the website doesnt work anymore

because sose ruined your whole internet career 2 years ago.

You love me, You' can't get enough...

Stop talking to yourself... mr commenter its sure aint cute.

Stop loving me... im playing psp. And i dont love you...

Well maybe i do cause you love me right boo??

hahaha!!!

www. RatedUnblockable.com

Socializing

People have their opinions. I have mine. I've been told that i have a fuck the world persona. I do. Lol fact is I just like arguing and debating. I always end up trying to get my opinion heard and pointed out. I disagree with a lot! You wanna know me? sure...

My fav color is Red obviously everything i do is red. Red is the color of seduction. Seduction is the art of luring. Yes i lure... but i do nothing more after luring. I draw crowds i gather a lot of people. Finish it off with entertaining.

Movies? i dont know. Kinda hard. I like comedies, action and drama. Friday uhmm Fast and the furious. I like when they mix some movies with love. Sometimes thats good. Uhm ya kno... well you dont but w.e...hehe

My fav type of games are role playing. Any game that puts me in the game. I Like those platformers dont get me wrong... mario, sonic... uhm ya know. I like virtual worlds because you can be who you wanna be. who you desire. You mite say thats lame and thats who we usta diss but it came a time where we grew up and said to hell with it...Let people be who they wanna be. IT helps them to grow as a human being.

Xbox 360 vs Playstation 3. I am a Playstation girl only because its what i grew up with. Online is free. And i have a choice to use other products and not microsofts. Playstation is a fun system if ur a single player gamer. Online is just a plus because not all servers work well. Xbox is Great for the online experience. keeps everyone connected at all times... jump right in the game from the dashboard at a snap of a finger. What more can you ask for?

Playstation home. Well it was supposed to be a place to meet other gamers. SINCE u can get married on playstation home. I find it pretty useles...lots of E-Thugs go there. heh..

am i single? yes... kinda by choice. I feel like i should find myself before taking on belonging with someone and catering to both of out lives... My fav hobbie uhmmmmm picking on people... sounds like "why would u do that" but hey its fun and funny.

ill get more later i kinda feel uncomfy...

soSe = outSauce!

Shit like that

Shit like below i don't like going threw... its rather annoying to want to shit on people on a blog. I did get a chance to play mortal kombat. We posted a small video and its on the front page of my website. http://www.TheSoSeProject.com

in other things to come my cuzin was raging on halo while playing with my brother. I think its funny so i'm going to share it...

Hope you enjoy if not... fuck you

:D

You have No Life!!!

^ if u can't read it... play it on Youtube. Basically, I'm sick of SoSe. Sick of the Reputation, sick of havin to lay low key. Sick of peoples opinions. Leave me be... FUCK you and your life. Why are you fuckasses all afraid of me and the shit i can do? All i do is leave my mark with my opinion. I make what i say important and make an impact. Fucker YOU GOT CAUGHT! its not our problem. Now i dont dont know what happened 2 years ago but im sure it was something about some Jasmin person upset so much about their playstation home world torn. She or he was "Princess of home" Untill they FUCKED with SoSe... Thats when SoSe broke the bitch reputation. Killed her whole shit and now she dissapeared from playstation and started hiding under different psn's. Now u must be ASKING yourself. "SoSe? why are you reffering to yourself in a 3rd person?" because it wasnt the same sose... i was there but i didnt play the part at the time. I'm not gonna say who it was (cough icey lol) but SoSe back then ripped asses and tore them so bad that people really HATE "SoSe" all their online identities where crushed. Hell broke loose. Websites where destroyed... Addresses and threats where giving out. I mean sose and the SoSe Project back then was a big fucking mess. Now that I'm here and i just like being her because she's much like me. I Just dont want her Past. Its fuckin HORRIBLE! LOL i get harrassed everywhere i go that know somewhat a LITTLE big of the sose project. Its a living virtual nightmare. But then you may ask urself... now "sose... why dont u just be yourself" simple. Cause i dont want u to know me. I dont want my personal business around the internet. Its not pretty. 2...I like hiding under a character that was givin to me. It helps me escape. 3 People like sose as a character. I often get asked never to stop with sose because sose makes some people smile. That i can go to sleep to... im here to help sometimes. Help people get a good laugh and go threw their day. I like to entertain with my bullshit bumfuck adventures... but when shit like the video above happens. Its bothers ME! lol but what can i do? i took on a Heavy legacy which is SoSeDuctive... icey or lisa. A Hardcore bitch on the internet just entertaining people by insulting others mishaps... lol Thats cruel but some people fuckin deserve the shit.

sexxxx <---out---> SoSe

Just a bunch of Gibberish!???

Don't read my blog, because i don't like you...

No i will not feed you

So I'm going to try to type whats on the top of my head. Its pretty much nothing but hate at the moment. I hate this... i hate that. I Just can't stop hating shit at the moment. I'm ready to go away get away from people. I do no like a lot of things that goes on around me. Call me emo. Pfft Go ahead i dare you. I will break your face, oh maybe i'll grin with a small smile and walk away. I'm soul searching and I can't find what I'm looking for. Am i just jotting down things and making it sound like gibberish? Kind of feels like it because my brain is racing at a high pace. I cannot catch the cell and grab a positive train of thought. What do i really want to blog about? I can't say because i dont want anyone to know me...

I don't hear voices but i do have random thoughts. weird dreams and daymares, yes daymares. Because they don't happen at night. Its like being traped in a small room with nothing in it. You can't eat, can't sleep, can't piss besides in your panties. You can't really roll and stretch to be comfortable because the walls are to close together. God im sick of this emo shit as much az u are as sick of fucking reading it! (lol i just made myself laugh)

Anyhow video games are a temp fix. There is more to life than playing them. I mean actually getting the opportunity to sit and help make them is a golden day in my life. I would love to get a chance with out the stress more of the relaxation of putting something together and making it the best. Life is what you make it and im having a hard time coping with what i want to do. I have to stop trying to go around obstacles and just get with it. 1 day i will. I blogged at the moment to make myself feel better. It kinda worked. Now i need to relax, calm down and figure out something to do for the day... Disappointment is so not my friend.... lol

Yet i still feel like this blogg is a bunch of gibberish... hmmmmm

Behind every avatar there is a person...

Feelings...

i don't even know how to address this. some know me, some don't. I was called emo at one point. I was called dramafied... whatever. Fact is the SosE projects website is 100% cleaned from all drama. I do pure gaming. in Fact i dont even think anyone has even LOOKed at it. never sat down and took the time. thats why i float around and find new people to hang out with. My old friends seem to want to continue to judge. So i had a issue today with a long time friend cause i signed on home. You know what... i think home is a plague if you sit down and have a conversation with people. I mean its cool when ur bored and emo. Listen to other peoples problems and issues and then you feel like. Well shit maybe my life aint so bad. It could be worse. But then you got those who can't decide whats really going on because they are too busy being themselves. Its way easy to not give up who you are over the internet. When you do, people tend to gossip, Like me i let people think what they want... ima guy ima girl... ice still plays on the account blah blah blah. Whatever my story is i just let people think it. I don't care anymore. For the simple fact that people online lie anyway. people who don't lie need to understand that liars are 90% on the internet. I was told keep sose anonymous. People don't understand that drama is anything that has an opinion. Say for instance 2 people have 2 different opinions about something and situations keep fliping itself. Like uhhhhh and xbox fan goes to playstation home and explains why he likes xbox. Bunch of kids jump in his face and go. "FUCK xbox" cause him to swear back. Then they call mods cause he's swearin but they were swearin at him n the 1st place and the xbox fan gets banned... thats drama....

I mean i avoid stuff like that at all cost. doesn't matter thee situation i don't get involved.

Behind every avatar there is a person...

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Who hides their true identity!

Sexxxxxx

out!!

Live

Noticed when you do things live. things start to happen. Yea i've been streaming my gameplay live every so often... on my site @ http://www.thesoseproject.com/sosesstream.htm

Playing Fable 3, DC universe, Red dead Redemption, LittleBigPlanet 2, smackdown vs raw (sometimes) and Maybe left 4 dead 2

Speaking of which i should be updating soon. But you know what i mean by live when u go look at my video archive on my ustream account... (lol) http://www.ustream.tv/user/TheSoSeProject

just see for yourself. Anyway. I thought i'd make a short update i guess for those who do read this. I would hope u come check me out daily im usually always streaming what im doing on ps3 :D

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in other news. I'm pretty sick. Im trying to hang n there daily ya know mentally. Life has had its ways wit me and all i can see myself doing is gaming. I want a career out of gaming. Not necessarily a tester... journalist or nothing like that. Maybe a pre animator... idk... then again writing could be fun but i give bad opinions on everything before i finish playing it. its all good... I'll give myself some time to figure it out. Check out my show... we gonna make it good with DC universe.

I'm having a bad life

Sometimes you sit back and think to yourself are you happy or not? Are you satisfied? You wonder if everything is enough. You worry about tomorrow. You cannot come up with an answer for your own self. It seems hard, ye the worse feeling in the world because you cannot even come up with the conclusion of what you want to do in the next 5 mins. Well this is how i feel every 2 breaths that i take. I'm lost. What can i do to make myself smile? I dont even know if that exist... i push people away from me because i dont want others to suffer with my negativity. I'm creative... Yes this i know, people like some of the stuff i do, but sometimes i dont feel like i've done enough. I Drew large crowds before, but it doesnt seem enough and to top if all of... I cannot be the center of attention I hate it. I hate when a bunch of people try to talk to me at once about what they like that i did. I get rude and nasty... but when im in the shadows where i am most comfortable... i seem to enjoy people being inquisitive about me. I say "blog sose it makes you feel good" then i think well people read it and they mite gain a sense of my weaknesses. You know me Im hardcore. I don't let things appear to be bad or let anyone bother me. I do know that if someone tries something with me i will get them 10x harder. It's been proven.

Every seconds is a step closer to death. I mean for everyone this is true but for me its losing the will to live due to the belittling i get from family. I hate it when you're doing something others cannot understand and relate to and want to call you worthless or lame. I mean no motivation what so ever. Just simple put downs because you cannot accommodate to their shitty lifestyle of daily struggle. dont get me wrong im not being emo here and saying i want to die. I'm fighting it off. God has his ways of putting you threw the storm before you can get to the rainbow.I rather not sit around and hustle for right now. I rather hustle for years to come. teach myself as much as i can so when life is out there for me i can handle it. I sponge myself with knowledge daily because i refuse to be ignorant like certain individuals. I've learned n this life you must be likeable in order to succeed no matter what your job is you must be able to communicate with people in a business order. You must smile at all times. You must make sure people around you have nothing to worry about other than getting things done. Everything can be considered drama and getting in the way of business. I don't hate life... I just dont like my position in it and im hoping to get away from a level of ignorance. I've delt with a lot here... shit's changing and I'm fed up with bullshit. Now im starting to understand why music helps people. It takes you out of the zone of thinking about stupid and nonsense. I feel better when im working getting shit done and feel like somebody! music HELPS! lol... as CJ said to me 1 day... he left a woman because she was no motivation to him. Brought him down on his music... now look at CJ without her. He came to los angeles and made a hot track, met mad celebrities... and soon to be moving here to finish his career. He got to meet faith... I mean i would never bring a guy down ever. at this young age i've learned about my selfish ways and i rather push a man to do what he's supposed to do...

With all that said Rated U has helped me stay alive. It motivates me to succeed. I breath nothing else but success and i would like to take the time to pray for myself so i will never get unfocused so i would never think I'm worthless as some people try to portray me to be. I'm not saying someone said that too me (well yea i am lol) but im just saying I'm ready to prove mf's wrong and then when they need me I'm not going to help them. I used to wonder why celebs dont talk to their families or even help them.... well its simple... they are grade A Fuck ups! if you live in a home and people are cursing, theirs no structure and people dont do what they are supposed to do. Everyone does their own thing that makes them happy... and gets upset with others if they invade their space... trust me its going to stay that way forever. Its a never ending cycle amongst families in america... those chorus are fuckin important. Those family dinners u dont attend... important. Those eating at the table...night for dinner and talking to your parents about shit... important. Don't get me wrong theres 1 or 2 kids who make it out of the hood or the trailer park or the slums whatever u prefer... and they are called "new money" when they make it because they dont know much. They also struggle to stay in their position. Some new money cut off their families altogether (cough 50 cent) and become ultra millionaires because they have noone to worry about to bring them down.

When ur raised amounts structure(look at the asians perfect example) you're most likely to succeed if you follow directions correctly(unless ur a fuck up). If you're unfortunate then thats just something you're going to have to figure out like i do. I feel sorry for myself but. I'll get threw it... cuz im unblockable...

its a Shame

How niggaz think they test me i'm going to blogg they're asses. They get the complete fuckin opposite. The Delete button and the ignore. Nigga check this shit out. My name is SoSe i work with family. The Lions Den on second life. Rated Unblockable in Real life who are throwing showcases. I work with my brother who helps me mold my character into what she is. Me and SoSe are 2 diff people. I'm not and i dont stand for what the old sose usta stand for. With that all said I do not have time to sit on the computer blog, log and complain about people who do absolutely nothing with their own lives. I would be contributing to their bullshit and have myself drawn in like i need attention...

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You can sit there and get on my nerves to piss me off for me to blog you. Its not going to work. I've encountered too many people trying to do so im used to it. I only blogg people who show some interest. Worth lol'n bout. Ya know??? People who are actually COOL thats the only way i'll blog u. If its nice and funny...

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Banned from SL

So you can get banned from SL for swearing in PG area's. Well thats logical because they don't swear in PG movies. Lol. Well lets just say as a blogger i feel like what was on this blogg a year ago about dissing other people and their persona's no matter what they did gets you nowhere. Yea people may read it and it may get popular but how much intellect does it really show? I've learned something. Dissing people because of the shit they do is not ok. Then again some people deserve it because they drag others into their own little bullshit. Don't get me wrong im not tryna sound soft and shit. Its just, i read a blog about SL and i think its pussy. PEOPLE KNOW who i am and what i blogg about. These pussies sit up and ruin peoples real lives but say nothing about who they are as a person. They dont even explain what kinda blogger they are. I mean they go as far as posting the dick and pussy pic's. I didn't find it funny. I found it to be lame as shit and scary. Probably what people thought of this blog. Scared and hiding behind a computer posting shit. I would say i would take them on but i rather not waste my time with little kid shit. When i can be making something of my website other than putting anonymous disses on here hoping for people to read it. ! day you're going to run out and then you're going to sit back and think about yourself as a person. I hope its not to late for you to realize how much pussy you are hidding behind that computer typing shit not humbling up and saying HEY! This is ME! One day you're brain is going to squeeze itself so tight the walls are going to close in on you and you're going to feel like the true lonely piece of shit that you truely are behind that computer and you're going to wonder why you're not doing shit in life because you're wasting your time bloggin and criticizing what other people fucking do when you can't even work on yourself. Then when its all said and done you're going to want to kill yourself. Well I'm not here to show you any pity. Humble the fuck up. I don't give a shit if you have a job, nice car and whatever else. There has to be something in your life that you do not like that you havta sit there and blogg about other fucking people when you dont know a god damn thing about them. YEA we have blogged like that but we grew up. You should too... The only difference is we gave warning that they will be on blast if they keep up their behavior. Now to other happier things I am comfertable with where i am. I'm no longer hangin on to people who have no push forward in life. If you dont wanna help me succeed then i dont need you. I'll do it myself. With that said im doing what ever it takes to make my website and rated unblockable become something everyone can relate to. Unblockables are in this world... its up to you to identify them and get passed them... :)

SoSe = out

The BrickSet

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Explains it all!!! so a kid named "J Gunz" sitting on playstation home. He ethuggin. He gangsta. with his

Lil fam and what not. Now u niggaz all kno how i feel about playstation home fams. I think its the lamest shit

on earth. Like muffuccaz can't go outside n get real friends. They gotta make lil fams. LOL

Sony eats that garbage shit up... and allows them to have "groups" chat rooms of 8. So they can

hear each other beat they sausages and allow their lil chicken head bird bitches to play with them

selves within them. Still, Home is not an interactive place so its a place for people with very low

intellect who have nothing to do but to text and talk about nothing... I mean sure the servers have

lil game rooms and what not but they suck donkey dick. Home itself needs a little more interaction

back to this lil eThug... and his lil booty pants (skinny jeans) lil fagg spent an hour talkin shit to J and his

people on home about he gonna kill him and blah blah blah... u weak... this and that...

see me in real life. I mean come on really? is it that serious to try to put fear in someone behind a

ps3? Do u must feel like a eWarrior? LOL

i Guess so!... easy access, thats what i call it. Any dude who claim they are a thug or a gangsta but

sporting skinny jeans of their ass needs to just apply for a gay porno flick. I mean seriously, you're advertising

your ass to other guys who like that shit. Whats the point of wearin TIGHT JEANS OFF OF UR WAIST!?

WHY OFF THE WAIST? if they are tight...it makes no sense to wear them off unless u want

some dude to be your booty warrior i dont see the point... they already tight, why not wear them properly

and doing some research on baggy jeans. Noone understood it but it made sense. The pants were LARGE

it made sense why they came down... skinny jeans do not...In Jail, dudes who took it in the butt advertised

by wearing their jeans half off the ass... virtually when i see it i think its even more hilarious. Not only

do u have low self esteem in real life by wearin them because ur obviously somebodies bitch...but virtually

ur also... some bodies bitch... now gunz, really. YOu sat there and talked that head then tried to get

childish kids to come my way with the dancing on someone avatar "hump" thing. It didnt work mijo.

matter fact i knew to leave the ps3 come back and still see u lamo's do it and thats exactly what happen

So historical. Change ya gang name to what i call niggas on SL... "the wutt wutt in the butt" crew... cuz

u niggaz is gay...

noone is afraid of text thugs.. or thugs who want u to "join their chat"

^ i live by this motto. When someone try me and get serious... i let them know this...

Wii has more game than u niggaz. I'ma have a talk with Marcus Psp so u clowns can "step ya game up"

SoSe is deuces...

What i don't blog about...

Ha! i dont blogg about me personally... my love life or who is in my life. So today, a past blog i wrote... about a certain person. Yea he upset me. He deleted me cause i wouldn't "pay him attention" like a chick would do i got fuckin pissed. Yes i acting the fuck out and started talking shit toward him. Now i said i wouldnt type out names anymore but for that i was wrong for it. What i dont blog about is the way i feel about people. Its because i dont like to feel. Feeling is for people who like to obtain a self worth. I dont need to feel worthy to anyone but me. I dont need to feel wanted, i dont want to feel wanted. I just wanna take my life and get on with enjoying it. Fuck love because its for people who cry. Crying is not fun. Love allows you to be controlled emotionally and helps you to be irrational with your decisions in life. Now in this case i dont love but... i do enjoy his company. He deleted me that 1st time that i blogged that. Because now he's just now reading it. He deleted me again. I don't even kno how i feel about it but like i said, I enjoy him around and i hope he can take it in and forgive me for it....

SoSe = out.

consiquences

What happens when you air niggaz out? Should i care? I mean people do try to attack you back, even put your personal business out there. They even go as low as talking to someone close to you and exposing your deepest darkest secrets. I usta do that, hell it was fun. When they did it to me and my family i felt rather sad for a minute but you kno what. I'm still here...

anyway... I try to explain to people my PS3 is artafacting for those of u who dont know what artifacting is... heres a video on youtube i found someone posted

thats the nail n the coffin for artifacting... but my ps3 is lightweight doing it...

my ps3 is more like doing this...

Thats what my ps3 does but not as often as this guys. I mean... people understand i do not like looking at that on my screen it annoys the hell out of me...

Why so Serious?

Do you think about me?

i dont give a shit if you do, I just asked... currently the instrumental running threw my ears.

So i have encountered fucking bird brain bitches who take sl or any avatar world so serious that they have to call you out behind your computer. Well, lets see there is a disclaimer on the front of my webpage that reads. "at the end of the day this is all not real" Yes so i do sit behind a computer and fuck with you. Cause i can do that. You can call it internet trolling if you want to but i call it more less like. You came to me and I retorted to beat you over the brain. Why should i care about your feelings... really? bitch dont like it sign off then or delete me.

These days i never have much to blog about because im not airing someone out anymore. I guess im more grown up for that now. I try to keep drama off here but so much shit makes me laugh. I mean i could at least try to do with without saying your name. But then my experience gets wrecked. I need to change something and change it soon. I'm tired of the same o'l...

check out this vid by rated u wrestling

2011

Its the Second day of the year and im kinda fuckin pissed off. They say SoSe and the SoSe Project are the 1s that bring drama. Well I'm the 1 thats running away and avoiding it. People acting like straight bitches.Mr (i aint gonna say your lame ass name) u little bitch, Yes you i called you the fuck out. Sick of your cry baby girly ass boy shit because i dont pay attention to you. Its not my fault and u were pre fucking warned threw December 19th and Jan 11th i will be busy doing what i have to do. Its still Jan and you're crying to me like a bitch about not being able to drop u a line. Papa... suck a fuckin donkey duck dick and hope back to cuba ya fuckin walkin double standard. To my x wifey... im not gonna say ya name but you're fuckin erkin me. I really dont wanna put out my business out there like that but the fact that you dont say what you want and then run away and whine about it is beyond me. I'm sick of this god damn drama i can't even enjoy fucking with people. Then again i dont wanna gain a reputation of fucking with people because i know some people read this shit...

I really dont have much to blogg except i meet CJ314 foreal and the proof is on the front page of the website.. i would repost it here but nahhhhhhhh..... Anyway so.... Rated U, Yes my family are making it big soon and i'm trying to go with them im brushin up my skills (well trying) i helped a little with my little wrestling show. But it was still 90% done by ice...

check out the lil intro show...

Now what can i vent about when it comes to this... Drama is nonsense. Why can't people just keep it loving... understand 1 another... stop thinkin about self and go with the flow? if you dont enjoy doing something with someone. Why do you stay and continue to hurt yourself and the other person by confusing the situation. You're obviously not happy. Its good to just get with someone who you have the same common interest with so then both parties can be comfortable.

SoSe 2011...