Every seconds is a step closer to death. I mean for everyone this is true but for me its losing the will to live due to the belittling i get from family. I hate it when you're doing something others cannot understand and relate to and want to call you worthless or lame. I mean no motivation what so ever. Just simple put downs because you cannot accommodate to their shitty lifestyle of daily struggle. dont get me wrong im not being emo here and saying i want to die. I'm fighting it off. God has his ways of putting you threw the storm before you can get to the rainbow.I rather not sit around and hustle for right now. I rather hustle for years to come. teach myself as much as i can so when life is out there for me i can handle it. I sponge myself with knowledge daily because i refuse to be ignorant like certain individuals. I've learned n this life you must be likeable in order to succeed no matter what your job is you must be able to communicate with people in a business order. You must smile at all times. You must make sure people around you have nothing to worry about other than getting things done. Everything can be considered drama and getting in the way of business. I don't hate life... I just dont like my position in it and im hoping to get away from a level of ignorance. I've delt with a lot here... shit's changing and I'm fed up with bullshit. Now im starting to understand why music helps people. It takes you out of the zone of thinking about stupid and nonsense. I feel better when im working getting shit done and feel like somebody! music HELPS! lol... as CJ said to me 1 day... he left a woman because she was no motivation to him. Brought him down on his music... now look at CJ without her. He came to los angeles and made a hot track, met mad celebrities... and soon to be moving here to finish his career. He got to meet faith... I mean i would never bring a guy down ever. at this young age i've learned about my selfish ways and i rather push a man to do what he's supposed to do...
With all that said Rated U has helped me stay alive. It motivates me to succeed. I breath nothing else but success and i would like to take the time to pray for myself so i will never get unfocused so i would never think I'm worthless as some people try to portray me to be. I'm not saying someone said that too me (well yea i am lol) but im just saying I'm ready to prove mf's wrong and then when they need me I'm not going to help them. I used to wonder why celebs dont talk to their families or even help them.... well its simple... they are grade A Fuck ups! if you live in a home and people are cursing, theirs no structure and people dont do what they are supposed to do. Everyone does their own thing that makes them happy... and gets upset with others if they invade their space... trust me its going to stay that way forever. Its a never ending cycle amongst families in america... those chorus are fuckin important. Those family dinners u dont attend... important. Those eating at the table...night for dinner and talking to your parents about shit... important. Don't get me wrong theres 1 or 2 kids who make it out of the hood or the trailer park or the slums whatever u prefer... and they are called "new money" when they make it because they dont know much. They also struggle to stay in their position. Some new money cut off their families altogether (cough 50 cent) and become ultra millionaires because they have noone to worry about to bring them down.
When ur raised amounts structure(look at the asians perfect example) you're most likely to succeed if you follow directions correctly(unless ur a fuck up). If you're unfortunate then thats just something you're going to have to figure out like i do. I feel sorry for myself but. I'll get threw it... cuz im unblockable...
